Halo honey, I feel like returning you a composition since it is the beginning of our nine months and somehow, as a reply to what you emailed me. There will not be any paragraphs as I am trying to do something special for you and I hope it turns out fascinating. Do forgive me if this is going to be wordy, anyway it should very well be. So here goes… Honey, I do not understand why we have the ability to pick up an argument so easily and so frequently. Did you realized that we quarrel over silly matters almost everyday? We can even have a tiff over a ‘la’ while chatting in MSN, that is how silly it is. I find it very torturing for the both of us, and it is understandable that our relationship is not getting any better. I think this behavior should be avoided as much as possible, maybe we are too sensitive towards every issues that comes about. Honey, you used to restrain me from everything you can think of, that I do. I am glad you noticed that I am barely breathing and that I am actually suffering a lot inside. I honestly appreciate that honey learns to provide me with oxygen. The word, ‘forever’ does not exist in my dictionary, same goes to the phrase, ‘… till the day I die’. I do not believe in them because they are actually very harmful, just like a murderer. I cannot afford to lose you honey, but sometimes I just have to. It is so contradicting. Knowing that some other females talk to you or knowing that you are going to a place surrounded by females, makes me feel extremely uneasy. I trust you but not the others, especially females. You get it, honey? I reacted ridiculously because you are my precious. It is impossible to bump into another you in this world. I am afraid that I may really lose you one day. Like you, I thought of the day you are no longer my boyfriend, but a spouse. Honey, I really have some sort of phobia towards marriage. It is a scary process of life, or is it not? Although I always manage to make you happy, I never fail to make you feel the other way round, too. I am frustrated of myself being like that, treating you this way. It is saddening. Yet, when honey tries to make me smile, that smile will not last. I want others to treasure, to cherish me, but I do not know how to do the same to them. From these observations, I can conclude that I am indeed a very selfish person. This relationship we are going through is suffering, a little unstable, and with many heartbreaks. Honey is trying to stabilize it and improving it while on the other hand, I am pouring honey’s efforts down the drain. I think I really can make someone happy, then giving that person hell. Sometimes, I do not know what I want for myself. I can use very harsh words on the person I love, which many people can never do it. Obviously it hurts a lot, I can see how much honey has suffered being with me. Honey you are such a nice fellow, still wanting me to be stuck in your life. No matter what, you will also have my full support, always! Our first three months together is really fun, although it is not stable either. It seems like we have been entertaining each other a lot, and that we do not bother much of individual’s business. Honey, when we started loving one another, many, many, many quarrels arise. At least, I do not mind being in photographs with you okay! We did happy stuff together, we did stupid stuff together, we stay together days by days and our relationship became stronger. I still remember how much time I spent looking for honey’s present in every occasion and how much journey I travelled, all I can say is that it is super tiring, but worth it anyway! Later on in the relationship, some unpleasant experiences occurred. I can feel our hearts shaking so hard that it almost breaks apart. In the end, we managed to go through it together. Honey, we will continue going through the thick and thin as one, am I right? You came today, and waited for a few hours for me to open the door. You are so persistent to see me, to talk to me, just to save this magical relationship of ours. You did it, honey. Efforts do pay. Anyway, you do not need to do till this extend of giving me all the freedom I longed for, and just leave one Saturday for you, just to be with me. It is very unfair to you and I do not want my boyfriend to receive this kind of treatment. I prefer spending time with you, honey. I’ll try to be as good to you as I can, be good to me too okay? Once again, happy nine months together, honey! I am glad my decision to stay awake and wake you up at 12AM just to say a few words to you, let you continue sleeping and waited for you the whole night to wake up and call me, is worth it. It is near 9AM soon, I’m really tired, but effort pays right? Honey, I am wondering how our future will look like? I sincerely hope that it will get better and better. I really want to lead a life filled with happiness with honey. Let’s do our best to make our life more colorful. I believe we can do it! Nine months have passed, without hesitation and without any doubts, you are the best boyfriend ever! I adore you. I miss you. I love you, honey! 九个月的幸福愉快

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